It's getting harder and harder to cope and looking at whatever CT results I have gotten back i think I will really need to buck up to perform well in the promos... And with the projects that I have to undertake simultaneously... I know it's not going to be easy but hey... Studies wise... If I fail it this time I can retake the paper or do even better another time... But something physical like dance.... I don't know how many more years my body can take without breaking down completely. People always ask why I try to be a supergirl and engage in so many things at once... Why can't I just be like the normal teenager who just goes to school, goes out with friends and enjoy my youth?
I'm not complaining or saying that it's not normal because there are other people among us who do have a lot of other things to handle as well. It' hard, but the fruits are sweet and when I look back on my life years later, I'd be able to say that I did something to the end.
I don't want to give up on something because I really believe in the strength of the human mind. I believe that we can do anything as long as we set our heart to it. I know that as long as I have a goal and set my heart on achieving it, I will.
It would be nice to have a friend or two to give you a hug or hold your hand along the way, but the truth is, they are people too and you can't always expect them to be there all the time. It's true that no man can stand alone to fight a war against the world and expect to win, but when one man in a 10,000 strong army loses his life in battle, the remaining 9,999 can still stand by themselves to fight.
It may seem like a false analogy, but whatever the case, whether or not there are people by our side to help fight the obstacles that we may face, it doesn't mean that the willpower should deplete with each person less.
I realised I've been talking in circles and... suddenly I don't even know what I'm talking about... Looks like i have to clear out my own thoughts and try to sort them out before I weave such a tangled web of thoughts and ideas that I just lose my mind...
See what I mean?
hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*
aboutME.
amethyst1943
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jc
dancer
shooter
myLOVES.
=)
dance
green
chinese
ducks!
the west side of my island
myWISHES.
golden leaf
strong constitution
pleasant disposition
do well for 'A's!
[still thinking]
goldenWORDS.
the greatest thing you'll ever learn
is just to love and be loved in return-
