Yo ppl... Just finished NAPFA PFT 5 stations and feeling quite bored. Told mel to come online but didn't. Stoopid mel. Cell smsed me asking "Why are u so sad?" To tell the truth, i swear i wasn't sad. I was just... hallucinating, dreaming, and i swear it was the rain that did it. There was sth abt the rain that made it lonely. WHen i looked out into the netball courts and the sound of the rain falling on the ground, i dunno why but they were empty and had a feel to loneliness about it. Don't get me wrong, i wasn't the one feeling lonely. The courts looked like it was at a perpetual standstill and it felt like time had stopped right there. The courts that were usually filled with the heavy todding of feet and the laughter of netball players were empty. Think about it. Suddenly i was just frozen into my own time. I dunno how to explain it, but i think mel saw me. Talk abt dejavu, when i walked into the rain i felt so familiar, yet so different. When i first walked by the netball courts in my pri sch i was thinking "I'm gonna be one someday." But now that i walk past the courts again i realised how time had flew by, and what have i become? There are so many things that i want to be, i want to do. FOr example, i want to be a gymnast, i wished i ahd never given it up. It was the most impt thing in my life when i was in pri 2-4 and when i look back, i remember how i used to be. And how i shattered the dream of being a gymnast myself. When i ran for my class event, i was so happy because i know i could run, and i loved it. I was a good runner then, with good stamina and training (thanks to gym) and now when i run, i can see what change had taken place in me. I had lost most of the things that i loved and i know i shouldn't regret. And honestly, i don't. I had so many things i want to learn, so many things i want to be. My greatest love is sports, but what a contrast becoz now im just some silly bimbotic girl who can't take stress and vigorous activities. Maybe you guys won't understand la, but i get these spells sometimes throughout the year, when im just stranded in my own thought. And nope, i wasn't sad. I was just reflecting on myself. CHecking to see what dreams i really have accomplished. Seems like none. To Mel and Cell, i really look up to the two of yall esp becoz yall are sth that i will nvr be able to be. To Cheryl, i admire your personality and honesty, becoz your tact is sth no one can take away frm u. To all the D6 and all those ppl out there who still have many dreams in mind to accomplish, don't wait, just do it. You wouldn't want to end up just... like me.
hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*
aboutME.
amethyst1943
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jc
dancer
shooter
myLOVES.
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dance
green
chinese
ducks!
the west side of my island
myWISHES.
golden leaf
strong constitution
pleasant disposition
do well for 'A's!
[still thinking]
goldenWORDS.
the greatest thing you'll ever learn
is just to love and be loved in return-
